Selfish, or just tired of putting everybody first.

I am such a maternal person, all I've ever wanted to do is look after people and put them first. The last couple of weeks though I've been a bit selfish, I've been told that I put too much effort into looking after others and in return I don't look after myself enough and then I end up poorly and run down. So I didn't stop caring about other peoples problems, I just started caring more about my own and I've seen such a difference in myself since. I've been happier in so many different ways and so much has happened the last couple of weeks. I think this year really could be mine after the rubbish year I had last year. I still feel bad though because I feel selfish for putting myself first so much, but if I'm not happy how can I help anyone else to be happy? I'm glad that I have such beautiful and understanding friends who see this change as only a positive thing and like the new happy me :) I like not having to rely on anybody else for my happiness. For the first time in a while I am completely happy with myself and I hope it stays this way for a very long time :) 
Laura 
xoxo