I am absolutely heartbroken, my favourite couple in the whole of the country are on a break! Lydia Rose Bright and James Argent have been having time apart since Christmas and the nation only found out last night in the first episode of series four of The Only Way Is Essex. I am absolutely stunned that they managed to keep this quiet considering they are both in the public eye so much. It just goes to show though that any celebrity can keep their private lives private if they try hard enough. I really feel for both of them in this
situation because from last nights episode you can clearly see how much they still truly love each other especially with James tweeting that he had flew back from Dubai early in order to give Lydia her 21st birthday present. Awww I really hope they work it out I think I'll give up all hope of finding the love of my life if this couple split up. They've been through so much together and have been together such a long time it will be devastating to see them go their separate ways. I hope this series brings them both back together and shows viewers that sometimes love does last forever
I am such a maternal person, all I've ever wanted to do is look after people and put them first. The last couple of weeks though I've been a bit selfish, I've been told that I put too much effort into looking after others and in return I don't look after myself enough and then I end up poorly and run down. So I didn't stop caring about other peoples problems, I just started caring more about my own and I've seen such a difference in myself since. I've been happier in so many different ways and so much has happened the last couple of weeks. I think this year really could be mine after the rubbish year I had last year. I still feel bad though because I feel selfish for putting myself first so much, but if I'm not happy how can I help anyone else to be happy? I'm glad that I have such beautiful and understanding friends who see this change as only a positive thing and like the new happy me :) I like not having to rely on anybody else for my happiness. For the first time in a while I am completely happy with myself and I hope it stays this way for a very long time :)
Laura
xoxo
Well well well Simon Cowell didn't expect Cheryl Cole to be voted best Judge for the Xfactor USA did he. After uprooting her from her family and friends and promising her a life in the USA Cowell dumped and replaced Cheryl as a judge on the Xfactor USA stating that her accent was unclear and hard for the Americans to understand. What an absolute knock back for poor Cheryl after everything she's been through recently. However she bounced back as she always does and only went and got voted the best Judge for her time on the Xfactor USA. Eat your words Simon Cowell. What a beautiful woman Cheryl is. Definitely one of my favourite celebrities!
Laura
xoxox
Wow what a week, first week back at University for me this week. I am shattered! Ok so I am only in two days a week but its still tiring, reading, writing assignments, finding inspiration for my dissertation. So I'm really sorry that my blog has been neglected this week. I am currently sat in bed writing this because I'm refusing to get out of bed today until I have too. Nothing new or exciting has really happened in my life this week. I've spent the week having my childhood ruined by lecturers who love telling me how Disney structures your childhood in a negative way - single parent families, learning to deal with death before they need to. All subliminal messages of course! I'll never look at a disney film the same again. I have a few things to blog about today, this is just a general rant of why my blog has been left so neglected
Laura
xoxo
I don't know how many of you watch itv2's The Only Way Is Essex, but I absolutely love it. I was devastated by the departure of lovable scoundrel Mark Wright at the end of season 3 but absolutely shocked when I saw on twitter that Maria Fowler would not be returning for series 4. Maria became famous for being the extra in Lauren Popes' and Kirk Norcross' argument over his date with Lucy Meck by hurling abuse at the pair across a restaurant in defence of her best friend. Since then she's become a part of the team, appearing in almost every episode of series 3. She was recently dating Mick Norcross (Kirks Father) and disappeared from the show for a while when horrible rumours were started that she was an escort. Proven false of course. Personally I loved her on the show with her big teeth and false boobs, she was honest and made absolute hilarious television. I will miss her and I'm sure a lot of other TOWIE followers will too. I hope she comes back in the future to show the new extra's how its done.
Laura
xoxo
Just had a conversation with an old friend over the phone, who's afraid she's too heartless for her own good. It made me wonder is heartless the best policy? do we as girls, allow ourselves to get too attached to hot blooded males who have one thing and one thing only on their mind. Ok so I'm not saying that every single male in the world is like this, I've come across a couple that aren't but every girl in my group of friends, seems to go for the type that will use you, and hurt you. Myself included. Its hard because its a strange kind of attraction, and its hard to avoid. So would it hurt to become a little bit more like them and would it better for us. I'm sure it would certainly spare the pillow a few tears, but is this the point when everything maternal about us kicks in and says no you do care and your supposed to care and its ok that you care? I honestly wish I could be a little bit more heartless and less attached to this arrogant, pig headed type of person I'm attracted to. Yet I can't help to wonder if its a good thing being heartless, is it more or less attractive? Does society accept heartless women? or does it just throw them to the side and class them as spinsters, women that have been hurt so badly in the past they can't bring themselves to love again. Is it part and parcel of being young, were not looking for somebody to spend the rest of our lives with at the age of 20, so is it just a bit of fun that our emotions get too attached too?
Laura
xoxo
Tonight I'm sat here and after writing a 1000 words on child care policy and law I find myself asking, how often in our lives do we let something really good get away for us to just cling to the bad stuff we don't need any more. Writing my assignment didn't make me think of this its been playing on my mind for a couple of days now. I'm one of those really annoying people who find something that makes them happy, and become happy then stamp all over it and go back to something that doesn't necessarily make me happy but I am comfortable with it. How many times must we hurt ourselves and others in this process. I used to say that doing what I did was a mistake, now after a harsh reality shock I've realised the only mistake I ever made was not trusting myself enough to be comfortable some place else. Is it too late to go back and correct what I did? yes, far too late. I hurt and changed the way people felt and behaved, and now I hate the people they have become and I can't help but think its mainly my fault. I don't believe in regretting anything, but right now there's a few significant things in my life that if I could go back and change, I probably would. Suppose we just get so attached to one person we are blinded by their significance in our lives and cannot see the opportunities and happiness something else offers us. I know a couple of people that will read this and relate to my post, some will have done the same thing, some will have had the same thing done to them. I don't really know if this post is a sort of apology to the people I've hurt along the way or just something I found easy enough to blog about. Everything happens for a reason though, and I'm sure one day everything will fall just as it should.... I just can't help thinking sometimes what or where I would be now if I'd have listened to my head and gave my heart a chance somewhere different. Are you the one that got away, or a stepping stone in this journey of finding myself? I suppose now I will never know.
Laura xoxo
I am absolutely heartbroken, my favourite couple in the whole of the country are on a break! Lydia Rose Bright and James Argent have been having time apart since Christmas and the nation only found out last night in the first episode of series four of The Only Way Is Essex. I am absolutely stunned that they managed to keep this quiet considering they are both in the public eye so much. It just goes to show though that any celebrity can keep their private lives private if they try hard enough. I really feel for both of them in this 
